he texted me. he said im pretty. we’re hanging out tonight. im so excited! that is all. :)

xoxoxo -Suzie Q

so tonight was one of those blah nights. i mean i had fun. hung out with one of my best friends Rome. he’s amazing. i love that kid. he’s like a brother to me. anyways, we were talking about my events from last night. and how i was utterly confused at how guys can flirt with a girl for months, finally make a move and exchange numbers and then nothing. no communication. wtf…? tells me he thinks im cute and then doesnt say anything else. lol. idk maybe he’s shy. but i’ll see him soon enough im sure. i live in a small town. and theres only so many places to go to hang out. haha. whatever. not gonna stress out about it. my other best friend Nate said i stress out too much and let it get to me. i need to start listening to him on that. its hard but im going to have to try.

other than that not much went on. Rome and i went to eat and walked around the grocery store. nothing super exciting there. so like i said. we had fun as always. but pretty uneventful. not much to do where i live. haha.

anyways, up early tomorrow to make 189903842 phone calls for work. then working in the evening. hopefully stuff starts to turn around. crossing my fingers. X^_^X

xoxoxo -Suzie Q

(ps. i know i never rewrote my post from earlier. all it said basically was i was eating pizza and watching football with my family. awesome times. nuff said. haha.)

so i just wrote out my entire blog for the day. wasnt much but it was my update on last nights events. and the internet lost connection and i lost my entire post to the internet machine monster. ate it right up. so lame. i’ll rewrite it later. blah…

big news here big news! i got the number! haha!!! went to the fake sports bar again tonight. me, my mom and uncle matt. we went to have dinner. i was there probably 5 times in 7 days. no big deal. anyways, we walk in and guess who’s our waiter? you guessed it! (wow your good at this game haha) the cute waiter! his names Mick. i thought thats what it was but wasnt totally sure. but yea. he was our waiter. and he was as charming and as cute as ever! omg i literally wanted to swoon. just straight up melt. so cute. but he was adorable the whole meal. and at the end of the meal he came and handed me the bill. he handed it to me and said “you go ahead and take care of that” and kinda winked at me. lo and behold i open it up and theres his number in all its perfectly written glory!! screaming at me from the side pocket of the bill book. i hurried up and took it out and shoved it in my bra. (yea i know classy right? but i didnt have pockets…. meh) so he comes to collect the bill and he looks at me and says “so uh this is all taken care of?” and he smirks this little smirk. so i giggle back and say yes. yes its all taken care of. he replied with alright thank you very much and i really hope to see you again soon and looked right at me and smiled. i just texted him bc we just got home. and he already texted me back! oh goodness im really happy right now. like literally just bubbling with happy feelings!! yay! :)

xoxox -Suzie Q

so here i am online. and bc im lame and have a hard time meeting guys sometimes out places and what not, i have an online dating account. nothing super awesome crazy wonderful but its just something. ive made some cool friends. and i actually met my last boyfriend Skylar on there. even though it didnt work out in the end it was still something good while it lasted and so on and what not.

anyways, im online and i get this message. its a guy that 26yrs. lives in ohio but going to school in oklahoma. so thats pretty cool. he has two pictures posted and he’s actually pretty attractive. nice tan. wavy brown hair. i mean not a super model or anything but i dont consider myself thaaat shallow. i mean yea i want someone attractive to my tastes but doesnt everyone have their type? my type just happens to be tan with wavy brown hair. not have i always dated that? hell no. ive dated blondes. brown or black hair. tall short. skinny. muscular. a little hefty. glasses. braces. i even dated a red haired guy who was super skinny almost like frail and wore glasses and was a complete computer nerd. but we liked each other and we got along and it was fun while it lasted. so i mean i have that ideal favorite type but will that happen probably not.

so moving on. the guy. 26. lives in ohio but going to school in oklahoma. tan. kinda muscular. wavy brown hair. we talk for about the better part of the last 4hrs. this was in chat. so its a solid back and forth smooth moving conversation. now he had actually messaged me the first time 2 days ago. but it was email. so we sent a few emails back and forth. i wanted to talk more. so when he chatted me i accepted and we talked. so now its been a solid 4 hours today after 3 days of actually communication. so he asks if he can have another picture of me other than the ones i had posted. this is pretty common so i was like ok. you send me one first though. and am i glad i did. he says well ok but i have to tell you my default pics are from a little while back. which okay not everyone takes a new pic like every two weeks and puts it up. you dont change that much. min are from aug/sep. so i was like oh ok thats a while back. incorrect. he emails me this picture of himself. its actually him and a friend. and neither of them looked even remotely possibly close to the person in the actual picture from his profile. so i have to actually ask him are you on the left or the right? the guy on the left was a blonde and the guy on the right just looked even less like him than the blonde. so which one was it? you guessed it. the one on the right. that literally looked like you were trying to pass off carrot top for sean white. like what? nothing against carrot top but no. not the same. not the same at all.

so long story short after that it basically just goes down hill. no no wait. not down hill. i mean friggin bottom falls out of the plane like in operation dumbo drop (show of hands if youve seen or ever remember that movie. whoa.) and just fell in a crashing heap. he realized that i had noticed a slight difference in the pictures. i guess there was a slight difference in interpretation really as far as the correct time frame for “a while back”. he got all awkward and immediately got seriously ticked and defensive. started shooting off whatevers and fine be that ways. so im like seriously? your the one that was trying to pass yourself off as something your not. it was ridiculous.

and this is where the powers the be decided to disconnect my internet. like it literally cut me off the internet and my safari froze and all my windows closed on their own. opps. oh well. he didnt message again.

and its not like i was mad bc he didnt look as hot in his second picture as he did in the first. (however that is a severe understatement! im being nice.) it was more so the fact that he lied about it. and this isnt the first time this has happened and it surely wont be the last in my internet dating experience. its just that if you have to lie to me about how you look to get me to like you then what else are you going to lie about to get me to like you? and that is just not acceptable. i may be internet dating but i do want someone real dammit. i want someone who is themselves. not just who they think they have to be around me to get me to talk to them and like them. if thats the case then just forget it.

i dont know about you, but id rather have someone dislike me for who i am then like me for who im not. plain and simply.

xoxoxo -Suzie Q